Charli XCX shares update following album release, says she's "been in quite a fragile state"

It's nearly been a week since Charli XCX released her most collaborative album yet How I'm Feeling Now. The LP was created from scratch during the coronavirus pandemic, and Charli XCX shared the entire process with fans, from artwork choices to lyric ideas, texts with producers, zoom meetings, and more.

Now that it's out, Charli XCX has shared an update on how she's feeling following its release via Twitter. She writes, "Since releasing my album last week i've been in quite a fragile state. I suppose I was so caught up in making and releasing this album, a process that more often than not takes months, sometimes years to complete, that I really ignored my mental health and emotional needs. Ignored is maybe not the right word, perhaps pushed aside is a better phrase."

She continues, "I was so focused on pushing myself, finishing my work and distracting myself from the actuality of the current state of the world that now I’ve come out the other side I feel very lost, overwhelmed and fragile. It seems I am unable to cope with even the most miniscule tasks without crumbling into panic or tears and I constantly doubt myself and my purpose."

Charli XCX explains that she thinks "it’s hit me so hard at this point in time because i have just let go of this body of work that was created in such an intense and emotional way, more so than anything i’ve ever made before."

Before wrapping up her post, she writes, "this process has brought me closer to you guys than ever before, and it’s also begun to show me the importance of really listening to myself and my needs without letting guilt get the better of me. i am extremely grateful for both of these things."

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since releasing my album last week i’ve been in quite a fragile state. i suppose i was so caught up in making and releasing this album, a process that more often than not takes months, sometimes years to complete, that i really ignored my mental health and emotional needs. ignored is maybe not the right word, perhaps pushed aside is a better phrase. i was so focused on pushing myself, finishing my work and distracting myself from the actuality of the current state of the world that now i’ve come out the other side i feel very lost, overwhelmed and fragile. it seems i am unable to cope with even the most minuscule tasks without crumbling into panic or tears and i constantly doubt myself and my purpose. i think it’s hit me so hard at this point in time because i have just let go of this body of work that was created in such an intense and emotional way, more so than anything i’ve ever made before. i feel like i’m left staring out into the abyss thinking, what was the point? do enough people care? why do i always want more? somehow, after a soaring high, i always seem to end up in an excruciatingly low place - this is something i’m really trying to work on. i’m updating you on how i’m feeling because i want to be open and honest with you and i want to let you know that if you’re feeling emotionally volatile or a bit lost and confused right now - it’s ok. it happens to everyone and you should not feel weak or guilty or wrong, and you should definitely not start comparing yourself to others. i’ve done all of the above, when really all i needed to do was forgive myself and take a day to be calm and breathe and relax: that’s what i’m doing today. call your friends, read a book, open the window, watch your favorite film, eat yummy food, dance around, do what you want - just don’t put pressure on yourself. this process has brought me closer to you guys than ever before, and it’s also begun to show me the importance of really listening to myself and my needs without letting guilt get the better of me. i am extremely grateful for both of these things <3 thank you for everything <3

A post shared by Charli (@charli_xcx) on May 20, 2020 at 12:04pm PDT