Flock of Dimes details third album, The Life You Save

“My previous records, generally, have been a summary of things I had already been through— experiences I had observed and reflected upon, reporting back from some amount of distance. But this record is different. It is an attempt to report from inside of a process that is ongoing and unfinished, from which I will likely never fully emerge as long as I am alive: my struggle within the cycles of addiction and co-dependency,” Flock of Dimes explains.

“I set out trying to make a record about other people. Their problems, their struggles, their addictions... But slowly, painstakingly, through this work I began to realise—I am not apart from all of this. I have been performing my role from a distance, but I am still engaged, still connected. I’m inside it, after all”.

“The belief that you can rescue others comes from more than one place, internally speaking. The part that is easiest to see and acknowledge is the one that stems from love, good intentions, and a genuine desire to offer care and support. But there’s an uglier side, and that part is harder to look at—the ego, the pridefulness, the belief that you are better, stronger, somehow more deserving than all the rest. That through your attempts to control others’ behaviour, you can somehow secure a sense of safety for yourself.

“For me, that was the puzzle piece that finally made it all make sense. But it was also the piece that was the hardest to hold. It took a long time for me to build up enough love—not for others, but for myself—that acknowledging this truth would not break me. I understand now that I’m not the savior, not the hero, not the chosen one. I’m spinning in my own wheel, a bundle of addictions and adaptations and blind spots, just like everybody else. And there is a beauty to that, along with a kind of freedom... In the end, it is my hope that this record exists as a testament to the depth of my love for those I cannot save, and that it might provide some comfort for anyone who is still learning how to love and live for themselves.”

Tracklist:

1. Afraid
2. Keep Me in the Dark
3. Long After Midnight
4. Defeat
5. Close to Home
6. The Enemy
7. Not Yet Free
8. Pride
9. Theo
10. Instead of Calling
11. River in My Arms
12. I Think I'm God